cap1_5

SHE HAS HER CLIT PIERCED!!! That took me off gard

Im just here in the C-building waiting for Kara and Clauds. I  sent Mary (myspace) stalker a Valentines Application and these are her answers :

 

Please provide positive answers.

Name: Nikole Marie (how orginal, right?)

Age: Really young, but old for my age

Height: 5 friggon 1

Single or Taken: Taken? WTF? NO ONE'S takin' ME ANYWHERE! So I suppose I'm single.

Would You Date Me ..why? Mmmm, Well, I'm not sure! I don't exactly know you, but you seem sweet enough...annnndddd you look younger than you are which is a + (for you, if nothing else).

Do you kiss On First Date: Every single thing depends on the person and wether I think it's going to work or not, but no. Most likely, I wouldn't...Just because I;n old fashioned.

Have we met: No, but we totally should.

How did you spend last valentines day: probably pissed off at everyone....

how do you want and why do you want to spend it with me? Beeeecause you asked so sweetly

Do you think I am attractive: very adorable.

Are you willing to be my valentine: yes, i said, damnit!

Send this to my inbox and then repost it for yourself maybe i will reply to you also. Pshhh...MAYBE????? YOU BETTER!!!

 

Scout Bar friday, saw Default and aw shit whats was that other band..."GO HOME, GET STONE!" Was that Hinder, I think it was, fucking good time, I wish the kids were 21, but then they don't like that music, Eloy seemed excited...but..hmmm...it get way out hand at the Scout. I was gonna go tonight for the Texas Buzz, but Im too fucking tired. Worked todays UHD graduation. Yesterday I took Hanna to see King Kong. Fucking good movie. Almost cried, but I got me close to her...score, but that was not intended. If you see King Kong, and focus on the human traits that they gave him, you connect. I donno Im a big softy for animals.

But the really sad thing it that now Im alone. Kevin is gone. Its just me, the ONLY FUCKING GUY at work. So just a heads up Mom, Aunt Meg, Caca, there are gonna be days were Im just gonna be pissed at random days, and you guys might get caught in the crossfire. I don't mean to, no one understands.

Karina, at the end of graduation - "JON, I love your eggplant color car!"

Anthony:1
Nutt Cancer:0

Sorry Lance, Im not gonna join this year, and $35 for and application fee, come on!

SHE WAS FUCKING THERE AT DAVE & BUSTERS TONIGHT A WHILE AGO!!! The look on her face. I saw her guy, and I was like I know him from somewhere. Then I saw him with her. God the look on her face when she saw me, she turn the other way and I never saw her again. Why did I turn her down. Im pissed now.

I think were gonna hit if off. She's different, but hey, you will never find that person if you only look one way.

In Cali, went up in the mountains and played in the snow.

check out my my space blogs.

And yes we're watching Laguna Beach.

GOD I FUCKING HATE LUCIO. "We have a victory!" as he walks to the front desk. "Prop 2 pass, we have a victory" Then he started his Nazi Christian preaching, how he is right and all other religions are wrong. Kevin was up there with me. Lucio was talking to me but I gave him a nasty look and I made it obvious that he was pissing me off. I typed so hard on the keyboards, I reminded myself that people can say what they want to say, even though they are a Nazi. I donno I just had the feeling of skinning his fucking face off, and removing one of his eyes with a letter opener. Im not gay, I don't care for gays,its not my business, but I don't think its right to band people from marring who they love. Gay or stright.

"Tod bis den, der seinen geschlossenen Verstand predigt."

O yeah I got to be on the ROCKETS basketball court the other day!!! It was University of Houston-Downtown night. Working in the Student Activities Dept and my boss who has a friend that works at the Toyota Center, I go to be on the court. Met with some players, but not Yao, damm you Ubaldo. I get my sign ball sometime this week. I got some pix at http://www.myspace.com/cap1_5

CALIFORNIA!!! Leave sunday!!

I should be in class, but Im in the SGA office with Kara, I think I might join the the summer.

Tonight is the Rockets Game and I will get to be on the basketball court before the game. I get to hand the ball to the player as they come out of the tunnel, and I hope I get to keep a ball, maybe they'll sign it. Why do I get to be on the court, cause I work at my schools Student Activities Department, along with the Campus Activities Board. Fuck if I do all the work for CAB I better get some good shit of of it. Kara will also be with me on the court, although I would rather like to be in the tunnel.


California here I come. 4 more days and Im gone. California will I think the 35th state I have been to.

A random side note, my step brother and step sister were born in Hawaii, they lived there for about 10 yrs or so, my step-dad was station there. Next year we might go, in the summer.

Im too embarrass to say what I did at the Lone Star Rally this past weekend, I didn't wait till January.


I got Kara good. real good. Im a jerk, but I love it though, and she found it funny. I mean just look at the body language, it so obvious.

SO yeah here I am working in the Info Center at school with Caca. Im so fucking tired, last night I went to Mikes house, some of the gang was there. We watch....we watch....shit I forgot but we did get high, o yeah It was The Matrix. Shit Kurt have you ever seen The Matrix when your high. Its a fucking trip man let me tell you. End up staying over at his place, bed at 4 in the morning and woke up at 7. Again my pants were missing. Fell asleep with Micky on the couch, nothing happen I hope.
Speaking of sex, I havent said anything, but now that I have only about 7 pills left, I notice that I've been extra horny since I've been taking the pills. Im talking unexpected erections out of thin are. I could be at work, doing something and then I get hard for no reason. Its driving me fucking crazy!!! Its like Im 12 all over again.

So this morning I was board, and Caca was like look at some porn. And I did, I got a hard on so quick. And then I told Caca about the pills and she was like, ok go ahead, so were both watching porn, with a hard on.

She says:
Damm Jon, you need to go and release yourself. Look at it. go Jon. Its on your left side, your gonna suffocate it. (pokes with pencil)

Me:
No what if they have cameras in the restrooms.

Caca:
They don't, just go.

Me:
No

Caca:
Fine

Me:
Ok then...........stop looking at it

Caca:
I can't its there bulging out the side of your leg.

Me:
Oh god, when I stretch, it feels good, look.

Caca:
Damm (pokes with pencil)

Me:
I can make it move, look (contracts penis muscle)

Caca:
SNAKE!!!

Jon:
LOL, Im gonna walk it off. (stands up) Now how does it look.

Caca:
Damm, cover it up, its gonna tear a hole in your pants, move it to the right side off your leg.


So Im walking, I go to the second floor, thinking to myself: theres no fucking cameras, its a violation of privacy. So I head to the restrooms, and BAM, Sarah!!! SO she talks to me for like 15 min, Im thinking good, it will go soft, WRONG, it gets harder. OMG Sarah got me hard.
SO I head back up to the Info. As I walking up the stairs, its rubbing aginst my jeans, Im almost ready to go. I have no control anymore. Walking slowly back to the Info. Caca gives me a look, "Im not even gonna ask"

So I drink some cold water and get a brain freeze, soft at last! But I've been holding back so guess what comes out.

2 more hours to go. I called Veronica and said im ready and she better be too.

FUCK JANUARY!!!

If you only knew Kurt. Geez what a horrible October I had Kurt. It's the first day of November, and still the curse is upon me. Today as I woke up, I pulled my leg muscle, and I was sitting in the front desk with "lady" and she smashed my fingers as they got caught in between the chairs. I hope things will get better.  Sorry I haven't wrote to you in almost 2 years, I've gone e-write, although I do miss the paper, but good news Kurt, Im starting back on photo journalism. O yeah, and Im gonna go to Cali for about a week, getting closer to seeing you in Washington. But you know whats the best news yet is Kurt, Im not bi-polar. Got a call from the docs. FUCK the docs, they don't know shit, said I was gonna have to lose a nut, they did. HA! I kept both of mine. Im almost done writing my journey through October Kurt, I'll post it up soon. Im gonna get some sleep, I hate the side effect of my diabetic pills, I get sleepy, upset stomach, even causes depression. I donno...Laters Kurt.

 

O yeah one more thing Kurt, Esperanza has a 3yr old girl...my first one with a kid, Might be going to the Renaissance Fest this sunday.

FUCK

Steph has a myspace, better watch what I write, wink wink.

Kel and I went to see SAW 2, fucking sweet, and you'll never guess the ending, lets just say you have to go back to the beginning, even the room from the first movie was still there even the bodies, well now that there' decomposed. Well I better get back to my paper, FUCK I hate this daylight savings, my body thinks it 7 but now its 6. By the time I get use to it, it'll be all ready time to change the time again. There must ne a better way to conserve the nations energy than this.

I just uploaded some nasty bloody pics from the aftermath of stepping on glass.

http://www.myspace.com/cap1_5

I havent been here in a while, here's why:

Sick in the beginning of the month.

Infection that leads to surgery almost lose'n a ball in the middle of the month (no sex till Jan, doctors orders)

And now stepped on a huge chunk off glass that could of cost me major nerve damage, at the end of the month.

I looking forward in November, Im going to Lake Tahoe in Cali, at ski resort. Broken legs, who knows, there's only one way to find out, tune in next week kids.

If your in a good mood, don't read.

Well I got a call from the Financial Aid office. They finally got done with my papers...and Im not gonna get any aid. Its fucked up cause they gave me a little over $1000, and they told me they're gonna reveres it and I have to pay the $1380.49. I have no way to get that money. So I guess I'll wont be coming back next semester and not working at school. I told Kara my situation and the she got all red-eyed, holding it in. I told I'll be fine, bot to worry, and that they'll get someone better to work here, someone that wants to work there, cause honestly after Frank left, I feel like I just don't belong there any more, I haven't been happy for a while. Its lost it's touch. I have nothing against the people I work with, its hard to say, you have to be in my shoes to understand.

4 more weeks till California, maybe something good will happen there.

Sorry guys.

Last night I spent all night puking. My meds are doing the exact opposite. I donno. I need to be put away for a long time. Im not all well. Im just tired of being sick all the time, tired of fighting, tired of taking pills that gives me depression, just tired of tring to stay alive.

4 more weeks then Im gone. Hopefully its the same weekend of APCA. I don't think I wanna come back. I know I don't wanna come back.

Maybe its just me, but people are not what they seem to be. You think you know them but then they come out of there cocoon. These people, they are the ones back in high school I hated, would never become one of them. I forgot. So why bother.
"I just made you up to hurt myself."

Relationships have expiry dates folks. That's all there is to it, no ifs ands or buts. You either know each other till ye croak, or you fall away from each other. Such is the inevitable up of life that eventually begins to see the ground.

However, there will ALWAYS be those people, who desperately try to remedy this, like an old california lady with botox injected into every inch of her wrinkled ass, NOTHING can stop the nature of things. By that I mean life cycles. These are not fads, you can't try to run away from them, try to fix, there's very little that is actually forever. So why don't some people get this? Why are they CONSTANTLY driven to keep up old ties? Hmmm? I understand why in some cases, old friends you haven't seen in ages you want to catch up with, family members, I can see why you'd want to know them till you die. But in the name of CHRIST IN HEAVEN ABOVE, when a boyfriend girlfriend relationship is over, let it be OVER. Do not fucking linger there because you will inevitably drive each other insane. Furthermore than you managed to while dating.

"Oh I don't want you out of my life, oh we've known each other for so long, blah blah blah blah."
Yeah, that's right folks, when you're significant other starts busting out this line, you're up shit creek if you're too nice to tell em to fuck right off. Cause honestly, you'll hang out for months after the break up, she/he'll ask about the friends for months to come, you'll fuck once in a while and then the day will come when THE OTHER comes in. This being that person, or your replacement. But they'll still fucking insist on chilling here and there, and showing up at your friends parties with this other person. Despite the fact that you said when you broke up that if parties where going to be going on neither of you would be bringing any one new. Which really meant, I'm gonna chill with my friends and bring new people, cause they're not your friends you clingy fuck. But what's good for the goose is good for the gander. So they start bring that person right along.

Then the day will come when you're bro makes friends with this ex's new person and he brings both of them over to your house cause they're all buddy buddy and you'll come home wrecked, realize who's in your basement and that fantastic buzz is GONE, gone forever, as well as your sanity, and the need to be nice to this clingy life sucking dumbass who hasn't the faintest concept of what's going on with other people. I don't pity the stoopid, sure it's unfortunate they're so stoopid, however in everyone's life there's that point of realization, at least once. Till then, I've nothing but contempt for them....cause...well.....I'm not THAT forgiving a person.

Avenged Sevenfold: Bat Country.

Going to Lake Tahoe in Early Nov. Then maybe to Sacramento. I should just drop out.